Breastfeeding – God’s beautiful design

I decided that I really need to write about this as an encouragement and reminder to myself, especially when the going gets tough in this breastfeeding journey.

Right from the start, when I was expecting my first child, Daniel, my dear husband was very determined that we should fully breastfeed the baby. Hence, it was a joint decision that no matter what, I would try my best to fully breastfeed Daniel. For the first month, I had sore nipples and Daniel also spent a couple of days in hospital due to jaundice. Hence, we had to supplement with formula. But after the first month, Daniel was on full breastmilk …..all the way till I went back to work when he was about 7 months. I was very proud of myself, that I had met the WHO recommendation of exclusive breastfeeding for the first 6 months, save for a couple of formula feeds in the first month.

However, I was never fully convinced about exclusive breastfeeding. I was actually ok to supplement with formula and felt that my husband was rather extreme in his position about breastfeeding. But nevertheless, since he felt so strongly about it, I just went along with it. It was not till recently, after I had Ezra that I changed my view of breastfeeding.

I clearly remember one evening in January this year … mum and sister were having a conversation about losing weight in preparation of Pris’s (my other sister) wedding. I remarked that my reward for hard work of breastfeeding is weight loss and I didn’t have to deliberately try to lose weight. I was dropping about 1 kg a month since giving birth, thanks to breastfeeding. During that time also, 2 month old Ezra had caught a cough from Daniel and I was so worried for him as he was so young.

That night, as I was praying for the Lord to heal him, I felt the Lord whisper to me ….”Trust in the beauty of my design”. I will never forget those words. I knew that He was referring to breastfeeding. He was reassuring me that the Ezra did not need any medication and by taking in the breastmilk which contains antibodies, he would get better. I also felt the Lord say that losing weight is not the only reward of breastfeeding but there are so much more benefits and rewards for baby and mummy. I never saw any beauty in breastfeeding prior to this. In fact, I personally felt that nursing especially direct latching which I am doing is quite unglam. But that night, I totally changed my view. I wept at how lacking in understanding I was previously ….and now I will never view breastfeeding in the same way ….because I now know it is God’s beautiful design for a mother to nurture a babe. Every pro-breastfeeding article I read now is no longer some ‘propaganda’ in a bid to support breastfeeding by the breastfeeding fanatics but now serves to reinforce the wonder of how God created the human body and His beautiful design. I have been converted! I now belong to the pro-breastfeeding camp! The Lord also put in my heart a certain length of time to breastfeed Ezra to which I cried out that I need grace!!

The breastfeeding journey is not an easy one and also quite a lonely one. Total breastfeeding by latching is not quite the norm here in Singapore and that is something quite difficult for a conformist like me. I don’t like sticking out like a sore thumb. Right from the start, there will always be people suggesting that we give some formula so that I can get more rest. I understand their intentions…cos full breastfeeding is toughest on mummy. Ezra breastfeeds on demand and even now at 5 months, nurses as frequent as 2 hourly or a bit less. Breastfeeding inconveniences mummy a lot … goes wherever mummy goes….can’t be away from baby for long. And sobs …… I can’t wear all my nice dresses ….the type of clothing a nursing mum can wear is also limited. The list of inconveniences goes on.  The challenge would also be to pump regularly when I return to work! I hate pumping!! I really salute mums who exclusively pump. So time-consuming, so much washing and logistics involved and I suck at pumping ….output is poor ….still trying to be more skillful and pump more milk.

Have I every felt like giving up? Often! But after understanding and revelation on breastfeeding from the Lord, I am more determined that I am going to breastfeed.

CNY 2015 Extended Family Getaway to KL

This is a late post on our CNY family trip to KL. CNY 2015 is the first CNY I have spent away from home and from Singapore.

With our parents and siblings, we spent the entire first 4 days of CNY in Kuala Lumpur. We drove up in a 3 car convoy.

We booked One World hotel as it was conveniently located just next to 1Utama megamall. This is our first both sides combined family trip with everyone in attendance! This is also baby Ezra’s first trip! Thankfully he did not fuss too much during the long drive up.

It was an enjoyable short holiday. The hotel was really great and I really liked the megamall. With a baby in tow, it was quite hard to cover much ground shopping. Most of the time, we ended up going back to the nursing room at Isetan! Wish there was more time to shop! I like shopping in Malaysia better as they carry so much more brands. Not just international brands but local brands too. I managed to buy 2 pairs of shoes from U.R.S… of my favourite shoe brands which is almost entirely gone in Singapore.

We spent a day at Sunway Lagoon too. Daniel enjoyed himself the most! He loved the water rides!

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Goodbye to my old car

I always remember the pictures my family took when we sold our first family car, a Datsun which was non air con in the early 1980s.

So I decided I am going to do the same with my first car. My first car has served us faithfully for more than 8 years since I got in on 14 Feb 2007. It was a gift from my dad. And I saw it as a sweet blessing of love from my Heavenly Father too. That it was registered in Valentine’s Day makes it really precious too. It has seen us through many wonderful times and holds many memories. From single to married to having one kid and now 2. From carrying just me, to ivan and me, to having one carseat and now carrying 2 carseats. I have driven it to 4 workplaces since 2007 and It has been with me for all the 3 jobs I have had. So much has happened in the span of 8 years.

Now it’s time to say goodbye to our trusty grey Toyota vios. It has served us well. It has never given us any major problems. Been through one accident, a couple of scratches and knocks. Time to say goodbye. Will always fondly remember it and the memories I had with it.



Rainbow Cakes at Nom

2 weeks ago, we went to Nom Cafe at Macpherson Community Club to celebrate Lee Lee’s birthday.

It is quite a cosy place which serves decent food at reasonable prices. There is also a small play area for kids with a slide. Really love kid friendly restaurants like these as kids can get really restless sitting at the table for too long. Just a simple small play area like that is really helpful for parents to chill and chat and the kids have something they enjoy doing too.

But the highlight of Nom Cafe to me is really their rainbow cakes. They have a variety of rainbow cakes …… Chocolate rainbow, salted caramel rainbow, rainbow cheesecake. Rainbow cake is usually just pretty to look at but just simple sponge cake layered with cream between each layer. But the rainbow cakes here are so much more exciting and delicious and they look good too. We got a slice of the salted caramel one and the cheesecake. Both were really pretty and tasted good too. Luv it when food looks good and tastes good too! Worth every calorie and and cent too 🙂 And the best is when it’s eaten in the  company of lovely people! Luv birthdays……a time to gather and explore new places to eat.